six months ago today

I posted this status to my fb page:

"Yesterday my Guatemalan Prince was diagnosed with leukemia. I sit here in the hospital thinking back four years ago when the adoption agency called saying that he had severe frontal lobe brain damage and cerebral palsy. The Lord whispered to me then that His promises had not changed for my son despite the 'news', and He healed him completely by the promise of the Blood. Same Daddy whispering today, just different scenery. Beloved of God, He is our Rock in every circumstance. When the world around us shakes we remain standing in praise because He is good and His promises are true.

Phoenix Children's Hospital 9/23/11

What a great reminder as I read this today. He is our Rock in every circumstance. What I didn't know then is just how much growth comes in a circumstance such as this, and how the Creator of the Universe always has a better hand than the enemy of our souls. I have so much on my heart, but today I wanted to specifically share how God has answered prayer over the past six months. I woke up Tuesday morning feeling impatient with where we are in this battle. I'm being honest when I say that it has been very easy for me to thank God throughout each day because of His faithfulness to all of our prayers and interceding, but this week even more so, as I have been reflecting on the last six months. I was overwhelmed with all He has done within me and my son in such a short period of time, and in journaling the answered prayers of this timeframe, my impatience was easily cast aside in praise.

We have been living on faith for two years now. So in other words, I haven't had a job. I have always recognized God as our provision, it becomes obvious when you don't have a paycheck, but in the last few months especially I have come to know Him as our Source. It's become more of an intimacy and a trust rather than a prayer and an answer. I have seen how He moves to accomplish His will, and how even in a circumstance as seemingly small as a woman and her son experiencing trial, He has raised up people and resources to provide for us exactly what we need. We love our apartment! Not a day goes by that we don't marvel at the blessing of having our own home with all things perfect for us, furnished in a way that caused many of our jaws to drop. We have paid our rent, electricity and water every month (on time too!), learning to trust Him for it and not carry the burden myself. We have a cell phone, a vehicle with gas, food and clothes, and two weeks ago a washer and dryer for our house. There always seems to appear just what is needed right down to shampoo/conditioner and toilet paper! Receiving has been the hardest part of this season. I probably don't have to say much more about that! I'm humbled by this experience and His faithful Hand in it.

I found out last week, after five months of waiting, that CR has been approved for social security. Back in October I asked God for this to come through despite that fact that getting social security for a cancer diagnosis is almost unheard of. Daddy always has a better hand than the enemy and can turn anything around for His glory. What really blew me away is that we will receive backpay for the five months of waiting! AND no matter what happens from that day forward, regarding his healing and/or treatment, we will receive the backpay as it was approved this month for the time past and is a done deal. The monthly amount is exactly what we need to cover our rent and utilities. Amazing God; He is the Source, regardless of where and how it gets here.

I have especially seen how the Lord has ordained our steps as it pertains to our church family. There are not enough thank-you's to express what this body of BELIEVERS, quite literally!, means to us. Less than two months before CR's diagnoses, a series of events took place that led us to CFTN Surprise. I probably wouldn't be standing right now if it weren't for Pastor Brian's teaching of the word, the intercession of the saints, and the love of friends, who, at any cost, stand on God's word believing for CR's perfect healing. And not just his, but mine. More on that later. What I can say boldly about a church family, and especially what is coming from the pulpit, is that what comes into our souls take root. Roots grow deep and the biproduct of those roots are either fruits of the spirit, or open doors for the enemy. It's one or the other. I have been set free and have freedom in Christ Jesus because of this church body. I love you people.

Believing in Him, not the miracle. He is the miracle!
But that's the point, believing when you don't understand. Believing in the person of Jesus Christ to do what He came to do, and allowing the Holy Spirit of God do the work within us.

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